Fellow bloggers, I just wanted to say even though I am new to blogging I am really enjoying getting to read everyone’s stories and reading all the advice and love I receive in comments to my posts. We each have our own stories and we all come from different places, but our desires are the same. I’ve been humbled by some of the stories I’ve read, and I just wanted to say I am sending positive energy to all you beautiful ladies. I am hooping we will all have our happy ending when the universe decides the time is right ❤
So…..onto today’s post! IVF Cycle #2 – In Progress. That’s what I see on my paperwork when I initial before getting my blood drawn. Seeing it written down makes it so real. I’m actually doing this. I’m actually in the middle of it. For some reason, it’s still surreal to me. So after being put on birth control pills for two weeks I went in for blood work and an ultrasound last Wednesday. Blood work looked good, and the ultrasound revealed 10 follicles, which was three more that I had last cycle. I started taking stims that night. I am on the same protocol as last cycle, with the exception that I took BCP’s for two weeks prior to starting this cycle. My RE says this should help all the follicles grow at the same rate (hopefully). Yesterday I went in for my first morning monitoring since starting this cycle and the doctor only saw 8 follicles, all still small. I had some spotting since getting off BCP’s, so this may be why. I was discouraged that there were only 8 follicles though, when last Wednesday he saw 10. Blood work came back ok, estrogen is rising so I am due back this Wednesday for more morning monitoring.
This cycle I also decided to get back on the acupuncture train. I tried it for about a month earlier this year, but it was right around the time I went in for my second consult with my RE and it really started to sink in that I had fertility problems. I got discouraged and never went back. This cycle I thought hey it can’t hurt and it may even help. I met with a different acupuncturist who also happened to be an MD so I felt she could understood both sides of my treatment. She did tell me it can take three months or more to see results in acupuncture, which is consistent to what I have read online. I am not expecting miracles, but I have felt less stressed since starting her treatments. Fertility treatments can be so draining, a little relaxation certainly can’t hurt!
So that’s where I’m at. I need to ask you ladies – do you have any tips on how in the world to maintain a positive attitude??? I struggle with this so much! For example, I was feeling positive when I went I started my cycle last Wednesday and they saw 10 follicles. I was also feeling positive with the acupuncture treatments and feeling very relaxed. But after going in yesterday and seeing two fewer follicles, all still small, I immediately got discouraged. Later in the day, my nurse called and said my estrogen was rising, but not as much as they would like. Another blow. Just like that, the positivity was gone. I know it affects M too, as he is a very positive person and always trying to look on the bright side. He hates to see me get mopey and sad. It’s just so difficult to remain hopeful, and when I am hopeful and then do not get the results I am hoping for, it’s just that much more disappointing. I welcome any and all advice on this matter!
I am trying though. Although the doctor’s appointment and blood work results were not the best, I still rallied and took a drive with M to the beach. It was beautiful! We ate lunch by the water and then took a walk on the beach and even laid out for a while. We treated ourselves to ice cream on the boardwalk before heading home. It turned into a pretty good day. I guess that is what I have to hold on to when I get disappointing news. Even when I receive bad news, it is my choice whether I want to go home and pull the covers over my head, or if I want to go to the shore and walk in the sand and dip my feet in the ocean. Yesterday I made what felt like the right choice for myself (see picture). Tomorrow….we shall see 🙂
P.S.–on an unrelated note, when I was sitting in the waiting room at the doctor’s office yesterday a lady walked in that I went to high school with. We attended an extremely large high school so I didn’t remember her name, but it was definitely her. I am just beginning to learn this but it just goes to show that sometimes the infertility community is much larger than we think.